For everyone else , to whom that see my sadness on my wife making me less manly and weakness or so watever , prophet Mohamed when his wife khadijah passed away he stayed sad for 3 years and had a drop in his all life , that year called the sadness year , if that would be little of this I would be proud of it . And I really don’t care about ur openions . Thank you Good night , hope I won’t wake up again . 😇😴