I really hope this year 2025 will be good to me... I have been through so much hurt that I just don't want to be here... 4 years of pure hell.... How can anyone be expected to come through this unscathed.... If you really look in my eyes you will see the destruction and the effect that it has on me.... I pray to God everyday to give me strength to make it through the day... I gave him my life body and soul..... I nurtured him everyday but God had other plans for him.... He was my life.....