HOW I ENDED UP LIVING WITH A PSYCHOPATH PART 56: I went home and cried. Why am I doing this? Why am I rejecting the idea of having a family, being taken care of completely? My emotions were ALL OVER THE PLACE. For a moment I forgot he was crazy, seriously. He begged me not to do it. I decided to ultimately and believe me I’m NOT proud of that decision. It rocked me to my core. But I did it out of fear. Fear that I would never have the change to get away from him. He would try to take the child.