I want so badly to have a mature but loving relationship, or even a friendship. Having your person understand and be curious about your past, your dreams, who you are as a person. Staying up late not being sexual but just warmed by the other person’s presence. Playing games together and being patient, being able to laugh off everything minor and deeply communicate about larger isses that bother each other. Watching shows and making each other thoughtful presents etc. UGHHHHH I NEED IT