Strobes or even speedlights are trial by fire. You can look at videos to get the mechanics but until you’re continually using them, building up a familiarity, it’s gonna be hard to wrap your head around. Buy used/ what you can afford. A lot of good stuff on the market. If you have friends in photography it’s best to get similar equipment to share and/or troubleshoot. If it doesn’t already come with a bowens mount, get an adapter. There is a ton of cost-friendly gear out there for the platform.