I realised where the negative masculine energy I had stemmed from; I suffered from hormonal imbalances, hyperthyroidism, depression and traumas that I was not fully aware of. these conditions and experiences I've faced during childhood had shaped my perspectives towards life, causing a negative imbalance in my inner child, feminine and masculine energies. once I was aware of my negative patterns, I realised exactly what I needed — the divine, sacred feminine who nurtures, loves, and heals.