when I was grade 8, I've come to the point where I always harm myself and cry unstoppable because I felt that there's no reason anymore to live and it feels like a chain around your neck that cannot be untied. one day, I felt that I was free from my comfort zone because I stopped harming myself and I started to appreciate things, but then, every random day I felt that my comfort zone keeps hunting me ’cause randomly, I am sad again and just wanted to die