I have struggled over the past few days to express how I am feeling to you. Verbalizing my emotions is not possible because I am too distraught with heartache to communicate clearly. I decided a letter would be the best outlet for my thoughts. I find it easier to formulate my words onto a piece of paper than to express them from my lips. You were everything I could’ve dreamed of the exact kind of man I wanted in my life. You were a few years older than me, smart, handsome and most of all caring