I found myself at a gay bar. My feet more or less dragged me there, internally I was shouting at myself, but when I had had a drink and the DJ had started playing some Lady Gaga, I found I was able to get lost in myself on the dance floor. I felt free. I used to win dance-offs at raves, I can really get down. A group of gay men made a u-shape around me while I danced. When the song was over one of them leaned close to me so he could be heard over the noise of the packed bar- 1/4