I wanted everyone to like me and it felt like if I really expressed what I was going through I would be too much of a burden to carry. But recently i experienced a panic attack around a group of people I do ministry with on my campus and it really broke me because I despised that they saw me like that when I was supposed to be the bubbly person they know. I normally have these anxiety attacks at home so I felt so betrayed and lowkey upset at God for letting it happen in public.