I found myself in a loop for 500 times for the past 500 days: update CV, plan to apply jobs but did not apply, research answers interview questions , looking at jobs Ads and planning to re-learn some old skills and pickup new skills , only the more I look at jobs ad and recollecting what I did, i lost confidence in the jobs I think I am planning to apply , then looking at more jobs Ads again and find that there are skills I am not at proficiency levels. Clock is ticking....