Oh god it’s happening again. My husband suffered & died of cancer 15yrs ago. I was his caregiver. I made a new life with best friends who took me in & have always treated me like family despite my preloaded mental health struggles. Now one of my best friends is also dying of cancer. He may not be strong enough for chemo. If his body can’t tolerate it they say he’ll be gone in 3 wks. I will be strong for them & do whatever I can. The pain will be unbearable for all of us. fuckcancer