Oh dear, i am lost of words reading ur life story. I doa kan u semoga dikuatkan hati dan dipermudahkan jalan. Leaving your marriage feels hard but staying doesnt sound right either. Tentukan priority u skrg and start from there. Before its too late. I smpai skrg wish my mum tinggalkan my dad sbb my dad abuse my mum. Itupun baru financial and verbal abuse je xde fizikal pun. Can u imagine apa perasaan anak2 u bile tgk u kne pukul. Trauma nya akan smpai bila2 and akan ade dendam dlm hati mereka.