I hope u can find a way out of this soon..semoga Allah buka jalan utk u & ur kids. Kesian anak2 tgk mak dilayan sebegitu, kesian mak jgk sbb kena bertahan so that anak2 x takut. Maybe mintak tlg any single fmly member/yg baru grad utk tlg tgk anak2 sekejap while u cari proper helper.. dont make excuses for you POS of a husb, u deserve better dear