no one kat sini can truly fathom what you are going through. a lot of people has been telling you to this and that, throwing all kind of judgements to you, to your husband. its normal, this is social media only Allah knows what is going on inside your mind. only Allah understands. Ask for His guidance. If u decides to stay in the marriage, ask Allah to protect u and ur kids and guides both you and your husband. If you decides not to stay, ask Him to give you strength and a way out for everyone