my dear, i understand your dilemma, understand your struggles.. he maybe a good father, but is he a good husband? anak2 will see how he treats u, and that will be their trauma too.. try to distance yourself from him first.. take a long break with your kids.. find yourself, cari balik diri u.. then you will make the best decision for yourself and the kids. anak2 perlukan ibu mereka. you can do this dear.. i know u can..