I feel your pain. My girl Tazzy passed away at 16, three years ago this month. I still cry for her sometimes. It was a natural death, she was ready to go, and she passed in my arms too. The last thing she saw was my face. It took me two YEARS to be able to get another furbaby, and he is a joy, and we love him fiercely....but she will always be moms girl. I'm sending you love, bc I know how very hard it is. Your baby was so, so beautiful. ❤🐾❤