I felt the same way, and still do. I don't know how to help you but I can say that it does get better. And if it doesn't, you can try just living day by day. I still can't see myself being 26 but now I am, so it happened. Of course it's easier said than done, some days are especially awful, but nowadays I try to focus on the good stuff I have going for me. Sometimes it doesn't help anyway: those days I try to be soft towards me and to protect myself. Other days-